It been so long I even come back here... I feel like a lot of things in my mind, I almost can't breathe at all.. I bet this is call adult's life huh.. Many things had changed, even relationship... I really don't know what she wants or I want? We are having cold war, we really get heated up by just minor stuffs..

But I could say that she is not the one, that I couldn't talk to her about any stuff..I had to be very careful with my every words that I say... Even since, she start to working outside and I'm in the army, both of us think differently... As the time goes by, distance between us has getting longer and longer... I asked myself "Why everything seem so wrong to me? Is my effort not enough?"

When can I get out of the darkness and find the light?

Am I not ready yet?

I feel like talking, yet none is in my mind, even she...